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Wednesday, 22 September 2004
Whatever
Mood:
 not sure
Topic: Whatever
So what up?? im still not very good... but yeah i dont know im just really bored and im not looing forward to going to bed... i cant wate till halloween... if i kill my self im going to do it then i dont know why but i am... its my favorite holaday... so yeah.. school was ok.. jed now knows i cut and he thinks im psycho.. which he has no room to talk cuz he cuts 2..so yeah.. i think i habe a's in all my classed except 2 so its all good...humn im so bored right now no one is on and no one has bothered to call me 2 day.. i always call them and im sick and tired of always being the one calling them.. but yeah... im going to go and check my mail...
PEACE OUT!!! MMFCL
NOT AGAIN deathprincess0789
at 9:09 PM EDT
Tuesday, 21 September 2004
Death Wish
Mood:
 don't ask
Now Playing: Paryer By Disturbed
Topic: The real me
Ok now you get to see the real me.. the suicidal me.. all i want to do is die.. i want to shoot my self in the head... and have all my thoughts behind me.. i dont want to have to go on and have to deal with all the hate and the pain anymore.. im tired of cutting i have done that scense i was in the 6th grade and im in the 10th now.. im tired of trying to meake my parents happy all the time i cant be myself around them.. they have no clue who i am.. the think i have never done anything wrong.. there are soo manytings that they dont know about... i get high i cut i steal... and alot of other things... all my parents seem to care about is everything else but my feelings... i feel soo alone all the time.. i see the guys i like in school and i know they would never want to go out with me... im just a fuck up and thats the way i will always be... i will never change and it sux... im never going to do anything to make my parents or my family proud and make them want to introduce me to other people with out thinking about it first... i want to start a band more than anything in the world.. but everyone dosent want to help me im all alone in my deams and they will never come true because no one cares about my dreams but me... i told my mom that i wanted to start a band and try to make it and she laughed at me... do you know how painfull that was to have my mom laugh at my dream... i have wanted that all my life... but its never going to happen... and i should just get over it and gut used to reality... well im going to go im soo depresses i want to kill my self...
NOT AGAIN deathprincess0789
at 11:22 PM EDT
What up
Mood:
 party time!
Now Playing: So Cold by Breaking Benjiman
Hey whats up this is my first entry and im at school and it is sooo boring... nothing is going on and yeahcomputer calss is really boring... yesterday was.. i dont remember lol bad memory lol... i havent talked to lexi in a wile but i read her xanga entry and she is all complaining about her mom... and how her mom id running her life... she has it easy compaired to me my moms a bitch 24-7 unlike her mom who lets her doperdy much anything she wants.. i dont know im just sick and tired of her complainging about her mom when her mom is really nice.. compaired to mine.. and her dads an ass but come on whos dad isnt an ass... so yeah i just had to complain about that cuz its sooo annoying... im now in the guitar club how fun not... na i dont know i havent been yet... but yeah i hope i can use my electric.. cuz thats the only kind of guitar i have.. but im suposed to be getting an acustic for christmas... my dad said he would get it but my dad never keeps his promisses so i dont know... well im going to go and do nothing cuz yeah im really bored...
PEACE OUT!!!! MMFCL
NOT AGAIN deathprincess0789
at 1:04 PM EDT
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